I don't know how this happened or how it got this way
I never thought I would ever see this day
He makes me happy and has let down these walls of mine
How the hell did he manage to do this in record time?
I never wanted to fall for another
Especially a best friends brother
I don't have doubts when I'm with him or worry about cheating
Somehow he has scooped up my heart stopped it from bleeding.
I don't want to leave his side or the comfort of his arms
How the hell did I let myself fall for his charms?
He makes me feel like it's ok to still be hurting but moving on is key
Like one day the demons will simply just let me be
He understands my pain and all my hurt that I'm feeling
He's told me all he wants to do is help me start healing
The downfalls in both of us are huge I won't lie about it
But honestly together we help each other so it doesn't bother me one bit
No poems have ever been written by me whilst happy and hopeful
Even though hope has proved to be nothing but dreadful
I don't know how he does it but as broken as we both are we make a whole
The pieces of him fit with all of mine and completes one happy soul.
I don't know how this happened and I don't know why it all feels different
I don't know how he's made me feel something other than pain, that I did not consent.
I never wanted a relationship, Ava broke me into pieces and shattered my heart
Shut me out and tore my entire world apart
Forced me to embrace my demons and give into them destroying myself
Indulging in meaningless sex, drugs and drinking into oblivion. destroying my health
Somehow in this stupid darkness and never ending taunting laughter
I find myself hoping this will be my happily ever after...