Still cant get her out my head... 21/04/20
Woke from a dream of you once again this morning,
After 6 months the pain is still there.
Cant get used to you never calling.
I just want you to show me you still care.
They tell me shes just a band-aid to you
I dont know if i believe it yet
I hate the thought of us being through.
How much further apart can we get?
I miss the way you were always there when i needed
You were a only a message or phone call away
You were my person, the only one i confided
I miss having contact with you, and think of you everyday.
Not only did i lose the love of my life
I lost my best friend.
I wanted to make you my wife.
You were my ride or die till the end.
Every time i think im ok and im getting over you, your back
Rolling in my head all the memories return
Starting with more drugs and smoking crack
It still hurts me and I don't know how to treat this burn.
Meaningless sex and tinder dates
Losing you almost killed me
Me fucking everything up seems to have sealed our fates
I cant move on because you still hold the key.