Its taking me far too long to come to terms with everything especially when those songs slide into playlists, play on the radio, the ones that make your heart melt and your head explode with emotion.
It may take a while longer but now at least I don't necessarily miss the girlfriend and future wife, I simply miss the best friend I've lost, the one that walked away, the one I've needed in the darkest of times, the one who could talk me down from anything, the one who I so desperately needed when I held the blade to my wrist.
The one I told goodbye and never got a response, the one who i just want to reconnect with.
The one I told my secrets to and shared everything with.
The one I simply used to call my best friend, sounds dumb but i cant stop thinking of how much I need you in my life.
Maybe one day soon...